Baby Baby Baby

Baby Baby Baby

by JeromeProphet
       

When I see your pretty face

 I'm amazed by your grace

I feel no maybe

My beautiful darling baby

You're my pretty pretty love

Sent from heaven above

You're my lady
My pretty baby lady

There's no doubt about it.

 I wanna shout about it.

You're my green eyed baby
My sweet heart princess daisy

You're the one for me

Like no other one could be

For your love saved me

My darling baby

    

You're the one I live for

The one I adore

I'm all crazy crazy crazy

baby baby baby

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Dedicated to greeneyes - It was fun reading this poem to you tonight.  I've rewritten it a few times this evening, so you may want to read it again my love.

  

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Silenced Love Intrusion

Silenced Love Intrusion

by JeromeProphet

Our love is an illusion

My fault

My pained confusion

One heart that beats

Not two

A broken heart so blue

Your silence an intrusion

Upon my self delusion

It speaks as loud as thunder

Pushing my soul dark under

And whom is there to blame

Can anyone be shamed

For what they fail to do

For not feeling 'I love you'

For it's my thoughts and feelings

That has sent my life reeling

And not your heart so bare

of love for me or care

So what should I now do

Make die this love for you

Or let it wither in silence

buried in unsung violence

And what of memories we made

The future plans we laid

Of soft kisses on golden days

Of the children we would raise

Are those thoughts now unmade

Or living in another way

In some distant place and time

A place we still could find

I'm hoping you hear it too

The song that led me to you

It's sung each and every day

God blessed in every way

And if ever you understand

We'll reach that promised land

And join our souls with love

Eternal, infinite, and one.

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Greeneyes - This is the poem I told you about earlier this week. I wrote much of it right next to you.

  

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Peregrine Falcon Graces Downtown Springfield Illinois

Peregrine Falcon Dives Faster Than 180 MPH
 
One perk of working in downtown Springfield, Illinois is the presence of a Peregrine Falcon.  Several weeks ago I walked within about ten meters (30 feet) of a Peregrine.  I snapped a few photos with my cellphone camera, but the quality was so poor that I won't post them here.

Over the last month, or more, I've seen the Peregrine eating (some captured prey?) in one of our company's parking lots.  Yesterday the Falcon flew just feet above my SUV while I was driving down Jefferson street at lunch time - to the delight of me, and my friend Greeneyes.
 
What an incredible bird of prey.  Just to see this beautiful bird stretch its wings and soar is such a privilege.  Not many decades ago this incredible bird was listed on the endangered species list, but has made a remarkable recovery due to the banning of the pesticide DDT.

Fourteen Things I Adore About You

Fourteen Things I Adore
About You
by Jeromeprophet

  

1. Your name

2. Your smile

3. Your soul

4. Your pretty face

5. Your honesty

6. Your kindness

7. Your energy

8. Your love for your daughter

9. Your intelligence

10. Your determination

11. Your spirituality

12. Your love for your parents

13. Your capacity to forgive

14. Your very existence

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My Crazy Evil Twisted Loser Love

My Crazy Evil Twisted Loser Love
by jeromeprophet

   

I've learned not to expect anything from you

This way when I get nothing at all

Or worse yet - rejection, and even abuse

I am not as hurt, or as confused

   

And when you give me something at all
 

Your hand

Your hug

Your kiss

Your smile

Your time

Your kindness

Your thoughts

Your love

Your dreams

Your hopes

Your trust

Your life

  

No matter how fleeting

No matter what price I must pay

  

I am happily surprised

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Hot and Cold My Greeneyes Told

Hot and Cold

 

Horror Freak Girl post yet another good video.  If this keeps up I may have to run a regular segment using HFG videos. 

 

This time the video is "Hot and Cold".

I am posting a copy of my comments to her post.

 

My comment to HFG's Post (below):  

  

I have a girlfriend, and she's exactly like the person being described in this song. There are some little details I'm leaving out which explain the reason she plays hot, and cold with me, but it still drives me crazy because I love her so much. For example yesterday I spent the entire day with her, and her little girl. It was like something out of a movie. She said to me it was as if time had slowed down for us - that nice! Yet today she changed again. Oh my poor aching heart. Good video HFG!

 

And yes I had this incredible Saturday with this incredible woman, and her wonderful daughter.  It really was as if time had slowed down so as to allow us to enjoy each other as much as possible.  Thank you God!

And then today - BAMMO!  It wasn't entirely bad, but compared to yesterday it had a confusing, and somewhat down ending.  What happened?  Leaves me a bit confused. 

 

What's a heart to do?  Wish I knew all the answers - I really do :)

  

I love you Greeneyes!

Coldplay - Green Eyes

Coldplay - Green Eyes

Darling, you said you just read my blog tonight, and that you find it hard to believe I have such a depth of feelings for you. 
  
You told me that you feel unworthy of such adoration.

 

Yet there is nothing further from the truth, my love, for I am the one unworthy, not you.

  

 

Coldplay - Green Eyes

Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I come here to talk
I hope you understand

That green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could, anybody, deny you

I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, now I�ve met you
And honey you should know, that I could never go on without you

Green eyes

Honey you are the sea
Upon which I float
And I came here to talk
I think you should know

That green eyes, you�re the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who, tried to deny you must be out of their mind

Cause I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, since I met you
Honey you should know, that I could never go on without you

Green eyes
Green eyes

Ohohohohooooo
Ohohohohooooo

Ohohohohooooo
Ohohohohooooo

Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand 

Love Entranced

Love Entranced
by Jeromeprophet

I heard it in the trees

Whispers in the leaves

Gentle voices calling me

To romance

I felt it with such ease

Warm love within the breeze

Your arms around me

Please

As we danced.

We flew above the waves

Skitter scattering ways

The light shimmers

Through your hair

I'm entranced.

 

Our union is in blaze

Souls lifted in light rays

You're the answers

To my prayers

You're radiance.

I dive within your eyes

Sail hazel green skies
You're beauty perfect love

You're innocence.

One day I'll be your true

And love you through

and through

Dedicate my life to you

In reverence.

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This Poem Is Dedicated To "Greeneyes"

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HorrorFreakGirl's 'Fireflies' Fan Video

Fan Music Video of Owl City's 'Fireflies'

   

I've been a HorrorFreakGirl fan for awhile now.  HFG just turned twelve last month, and she's already quite the actress, and Youtube video producer.

I proudly present HFG to all of my local, Springfield, Illinois readers - like all four of them..

Owl City - Fireflies

 

You Would Not Believe Your Eyes

If Ten Million Fireflies

Light Up The World As I Fell Asleep

Cause They Fill The Open Air

And Leave Teardrops Everywhere

You'd Think me Rude

But I Wouuld Just Stand And stare

I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly

It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep

Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems

Cause I'd Get A Thousand Hugs

From Ten Thousand Lightning Bugs

As They Tried To Teach Me How To Dance

A Foxtrot Above My head

A Sockhop Beneath My Bed

A Disco Ball Is Just hanging By A thread

I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly

It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep

Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems

When I Fall Asleep

Leave My Door Open Just A crack

Please Take Me Away From Here

Cause I Feel Like Such An Insomniac

Please Take Me Away From Here

Why Do I Tire Of Counting Sheep

Please Take Me Away From Here

When I'm far Too Tired To Fall Asleep

To Ten Million Fireflies

I'm Weird Cause I Hate Goodbyes

I Got Misty Eyes As They Said Farewell

But I'll Know Where Several Are

If My Dreams Get Real Bizzare

Cause I Saved A Few And I Keep Them In A Jar

I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly

It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep

Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems

When I Fall Asleep

I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly

It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep

Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems

When I Fall Asleep

I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly

It's Hard To Say I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep

Because My Dreams Are Bursting At The Seams

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Love Said No

HIM - Love Said No

Where Does The Love Go?

I was once asked to be her rescuer, and now I'm labeled a disturbed whack job.

Oh well, the first one to bail out of a relationship is always the saint, and the last one stuck with any feelings becomes the sinner.

I won't deny my full culpability for it was I who placed myself into the relationship. I was looking for an honest loving relationship with a like soul - that was my sin.

I wrote some love poems dedicated to this princess which appear on this blog, and took some pretty photos of a beautiful woman, and her pretty little daughter, during our all too brief romance.

 

Oh my, what a broken heart I have. I now see nearly every day a woman whom I care very deeply about - a woman who currently feels that we can't even be 'just friends' anymore. This is a difficult time for me.

The goddess whom I am still in love with, and totally broken hearted over, is truly a wonderful person! I believed in all the beautiful things I ever said about her, and I still feel all the love I ever felt for her - which seems to be the problem! I admit it, I am obsessed with this beautiful spirit.

I've never been one to use the word love lightly, and I believe I was honest in my feelings and thoughts - so where should those feelings go?

If only I had been a liar and never felt a thing, or a sophisticated player - then I guess we'd be 'friends' again, but that's just not me. So I pay the cost and must suffer my estrangement in this exile of unrequited love.

Time will heal this broken heart, but I will always know that this woman is special, and I will always love her.

About The Song

The group HIM has created so many great love songs they are definitely my favorite group. Ville Valo's writing talent, and melancholy singing, cast Love Said No as part prayer, and part crying spell.

Anyone in the midst of a broken heart, which I can totally relate to right now, can definitely understand the passion and pain in this song. It's passion which creates meaning. And it's that passion which makes love so very beautiful, and frighteningly horrible, all at the same time. Yet, who would want to live without love?

So I recommend that you watch the video, and read the lyrics below - then go out and buy the CD - it's been out since 2004.

HIM - Love Said No

And love's light blue

Led me to you

Through all the emptiness that had become my home

Love's lies cruel

Introduced me to you

And at that moment I knew I was out of hope

Kill me

I begged and love said no

Leave me

for dead and let me go

Kill me

I cried and love said no

Kill me

I cried and love said no

Love's icy tomb

Dug open for you

Lies in a cemetery that bears my name

Love's violent tune

From me to you

Rips your heart out and leaves you

bleeding with a smile on your face

Kill me

I begged and love said no

Leave me

for dead and let me go

Kill me

I cried and love said no

Kill me

I cried and love said no

And love said no

And love's light blue

Took me from you

And at that moment I knew I was out of hope

Again

Kill me

I begged and love said no

Leave me

for dead and let me go

Kill me

I cried and love said no

Kill me

I cried and love said no

And love said no

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Pink Whirlpool

Pink Whirlpool 
by JeromeProphet

Love rushes through me

For it's you I must see

Heart pounding moments

If ever you loved me

Love pounds inside me

For you I can be

I'm lost in the torrent

Your love will save me

Swirling love moments

Be most kind to thee

Lend me your angel

Precious darling guide me

I'll be true to you only

Never leaving your side

Dedicate my soul lonely

A love never denied

I tremble cross oceans

Once seemed to divide

Joined one in our passion

Our romance now alive

But I'm away from you now

A fate worse than death

Watching from afar - how

I can't catch my breath

Some say I'm madness

And abandon my love

My obsession and gladness

Race both in my blood

But no matter what fate

And no matter what pain

I must face this my darling

For my heart it must reign
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Poem Dedicated to 'Greeneyes'

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Photocredit: Steven 'Salfordian'

My Precious Angels

My Precious Angels
by JeromeProphet
 

I could never die

Until I fly

in the arms of my

precious ones -

Forever in light

with

my darling Angels +

Your radiance

It does entrance

a sprightly nuance

A holy dance

of our hearts now lanced

with

My lovely Angels +

It is in this moment

This sacred atonement

I find a portent

Of the souls that God lent

A bond that was meant -

with

My beautiful Angels +

With in that time

Appears a golden line

from our God sublime

Fates and hearts entwined

with

My sweetest Angels +

There and then we would stay

each and every day

Just K, G, and J

Never parting we'd pray -

with

My precious Angels +

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Dedicated to 'Greeneyes' 
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You Are The One

HIM - You Are The One

The HIM song, You Are The One, expresses my feelings well for a young woman whom I love very much. I've made my mistakes in life, and many I regret dearly, but I have no regrets about my love for you, or our relationship.

God can cast me into the burning fires of hell for loving you, and he may very well in the end, but that's a fate worth suffering my darling - for I will not abandon my love for you.

HIM - You Are The One

No i won't surrender

At any cost

You're something so sweet and tender

From my heart

Yes i've done my evil

I've done my good

Just believe me honey

I won't let go of you

You are the one

And there's no regrets at all

You are the one

And there's no regrets at all

We've had our share of misfortune

We've had our blues

And God is not on our side

Yes it's true

We keep forgetting baby

The beauty of us two

There is no one who can take that away

From me and you

You are the one

And there's no regrets at all

You are the one

And there's no regrets at all

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Forgive Me

Forgive Me

by JeromeProphet

 

I can be a sinful moron at times

And I can hurt others intentionally

And Unintentionally.
 

I can act jealous

Even when I have no right to do so.
 

I can covet.

I can act judgmental.
 

I can say things and write things that hurt people.

And I can actually believe that I I'm above all this.

When in fact I am not much more mature than I was when I was decades younger.
   

And I simply feel awful about my propensity to sin against others.

I am sorry for sinning against you.

I know the things I said sounded good to me when I was angry.

But the fact is, I don't know if they are true.
  

Even if there is some truth in what I said
I should never have used those words as weapons.
  

And now.

I suffer.
  

I suffer from losing one my very best friends ever.
  

A good and decent person.

A person I will never forget.

A person I will always love.
  

I have asked God to forgive me in Jesus' name.

So I know I am forgiven.

I know I am saved.
   

I have asked you to forgive me.

And you said you will never do that.

I hope you will stop being so angry at me
So you can be the Christian I know you are.
   

I prayed for you.

And me.

And I know in my heart you will forgive me.
  

And I hope not to let you down again.

This is about all I can do for now.
 

Confess my sins.

Ask for forgiveness.

And try like the dickens to sin no more.

I beg you for forgiveness for any pain I have caused you.
And I'll try never to hurt you again.

 

 
Dedicated to 'Greeneyes' Who Forgave Me
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What I Know About You

Oasis - Supersonic

What I Know About You
By JeromeProphet

What do I see when I look at you?

What do I feel when I feel you?

What do I know when I know you?

Nothing,

But something.

And I'm never absolutely certain

that what I

see

feel

and know

about you
  

is only that which I want to

believe.

But I do know one thing for sure,

and that is that you are very

beautiful

inside and out

And that I want you

Beyond that

I'm taking it a moment at a time

And hope I don't get it all wrong

For both our sakes.

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Green Eyed Goddess Divine

Green Eyed Goddess Divine

by Jerome Prophet

In your eyes

I see your smiles

of distant whiles

My heart is raised.

There's no surprise

No time for tides

We rush toward crashing waves.

I feel your heartbeat

Your fluttering heartbeat

I feel your hand in mine.

Your lips are trembling

So softly remembering

Our promised love this time.

We come together

You're now my treasure

Radiant sweet sublime.

My darling precious

Your love has blessed us

Beyond all measure

My green eyed goddess divine.

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A Breeze and a Butterfly

A Breeze and a Butterfly

by JeromeProphet

The rhymes have escaped

The words have run away

These feelings persist

And I've got something to say

Within my heart this truth

I can no longer hide

The answers to the questions

I dare not ask why

Like why I love her madly so.

And why I still insist

This love of ours in flames a glow

Is worth everything we risk

My love you read my words now

You know our love is true

Our careless love knows no Hows

One day you'll say 'I do'

Our pain will be over then

Vanquished with our sin

We rushed where Angels feared to tread

Yet our love's not crushed by them

And now we're tangled you and I

We're lovers like the moon and sky

You and I were meant to be

It's undeniable to see

The secret truth of our love

Is not held in the heart of a dove

No what we are is far from that

Perhaps the Cheshire cat

For we are to each other

Something we can get from no others

We are like a breeze and a butterfly

Flying fragile and fierce into the high

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Senator Edward Kennedy Dead At 77

Having been raised a Catholic in the 1960s I can say that I recall asking my parents who "we" were for in the upcoming Illinois 1968 presidential Primary. I was told Bobby Kennedy. Well we all knew what happened there. I remember being awoken to my mother, and sister crying over the breaking news that Robert Kennedy had been assassinated.

And years later I asked my mother about the day John F. Kennedy was assassinated and she told me I broke down crying because everyone else in the house was crying. I was just a little kid then, but I must have sensed that anything so important as to bring the adults to tears was worthy of my own.

As the years past the tabloids kept the Kennedy family, and Jacki O in the spotlight, and I watched them from afar - feeling a bit guilty in the process. But as I learned more about the remarkable Kennedy family, and their history I realized I was witnessing history.

I've always been a Kennedy fan.

I've seen this family survive one tragedy after another, and yet survive. And they will go on.

God Bless You Teddy, and thank you for all the good things you have done for this nation.

Of Beauty, Goodness & Love

In darkness

Of Beauty, Goodness & Love
by jeromeprophet

You feel you were forgotten
From a different land and time
You said that love was rotten
When I offered you mine

You rush to those who hurt you
Like a moth into the flame
I can no longer see it's truth
As you hide behind your shame

Men you say adore you dear
Yet you feel that you're unloved
Your smiling face is filled with tears
Like a river of pain from above

And not everyone those tears can see
But I do know that they are there
Because you shared them with me
And because I truly care.

I've tried to share some wisdom
And I have offered you my life
For I fear the path you have chosen
Will take you from the light

Your heart is filled with a darkness
And a pain so deep that you say
You're often thinking of an end to this
Not wanting another day

You ask me why I love you so
And as I whisper why
You thrash and push away with no
And we both begin to cry

If not with me I hope you find
The love you hurt to know
Realizing your dreams as divined
And a time which loves you so

You're beautiful and sacred oh
You're a gift from god above
An inspiration of Beauty so
Of Goodness, and of Love

You'll need to see this truth as told
Before you can accept a love
A true and lasting heart of old
Your salvation from above

In Light

Of Beauty, Goodness & Love
by jeromeprophet

You feel you were forgotten
From a different land and time
You said that love was rotten
When I offered you mine

You rush to those who hurt you
Like a moth into the flame
I can no longer see it's truth
As you hide behind your shame

Men you say adore you dear
Yet you feel that you're unloved
Your smiling face is filled with tears
Like a river of pain from above

And not everyone those tears can see
But I do know that they are there
Because you shared them with me
And because I truly care.

I've tried to share some wisdom
And I have offered you my life
For I fear the path you have chosen
Will take you from the light

Your heart is filled with a darkness
And a pain so deep that you say
You're often thinking of an end to this
Not wanting another day

You ask me why I love you so
And as I whisper why
You thrash and push away with no
And we both begin to cry

If not with me I hope you find
The love you hurt to know
Realizing your dreams as divined
And a time which loves you so

You're beautiful and sacred oh
You're a gift from god above
An inspiration of Beauty so
Of Goodness, and of Love

You'll need to see this truth as told
Before you can accept a love
A true and lasting heart of old
Your salvation from above

Director And Writer John Hughes Died

John Hughes, the man behind the cam in such films as "Pretty in Pink", "Sixteen Candles", "The Breakfast Club", "Planes Trains and Automobiles", "Ferris Bueller's Day Off", "National Lampoon's Vacation" , and "Home Alone". John Hughes was also a contributing writer to "Animal House".

And those were just his hits.

If you were a young person living in the western world in the 1980s you were affected by this man.

He died today while taking a morning walk in Manhattan, and was fifty nine years old.

I only know this man through his films, and can only respond by saying - thank you for the incredible movies.

Old Streets and Sidewalks

I live in Jerome, Illinois, but I work in Springfield, Illinois. I do most of my driving through the streets of "Old Springfield". I must admit I usually take a route which takes me through many of the old neighborhoods I know from my childhood.

Sometimes I feel a bit sad when I notice how little has changed in many of these "hoods", but usually I feel just the opposite. I drive past the church I attended as a youth, my old elementary school. I drive past many of the same businesses I know from childhood - some open, some not.

One thing I always look for are older stretches of sidewalk, or streets.

Asphalt is a best a temporary covering. It looks nice for a a few years, but it simply doesn't last.
Cement, and brick are incredible. Many of the sidewalks I see that are made of cement look as if they have been in place for half a century or more, and some of the few streets made from cement have also managed to last that long.

One thing I felt odd about was driving down the alley way which ran parallel behind my childhood street. I noticed that after decades of asphalt overlays that the alley which was once even with the yards along it was now several feet above those yards.

Also, there are the rare old fences which have somehow managed to survive the many decades since my youth.

And finally, the trees. Incredible trees of my childhood still stand, and each one brings back a rush of memories. Not all have survived, but many have, and I wonder for how much longer those ancient life forms will last. Just to see them, and to know that they may outlast me is actually of comfort to me.

I guess I'm looking for the comfort in finding proof, and clues of my youth.

I guess I'm getting to feel like a time traveler of sorts.

Then there is New Springfield. I know that many of its residents have no link to Old Springfield. They are busy living their sterile lives in their treeless neighborhoods - hoods where houses look all the same - where nothing dirty as an alley would ever be considered. Hoods where a short drive to the sterile corporate parking lots of CVS, Walgreens, Blockbuster, and Sonic, provide little in the way for children of this generation to call their own. In those hoods the streets are paved with asphalt.

Dead Like Me Now On Hulu

After my mother died several years ago I went through a period of grieving. I don't really see grieving as an either-or experience, instead I see it as a continuum of grief. So for example right now I am still grieving to some extent for my mother, and even my father who died long ago.

Anyway in the months after my mother died I was very definitely finding the subject of death much more interesting than I had before. The whole idea of mortality, or maybe I should say, my own mortality, and the mortality of everyone I know and care about became a tangible and persistent presence in my mind.

I guess if I had been an overwhelmingly religious person I would have sought shelter deep within my religious faith, or if I had been a drug or alcohol abuser perhaps I would have sunk within a bottle of booze for solace, but instead I found some measure of relief in some of the few television programs available which dealt with the subject of death and grieving.

One series, which I liked a great deal, is a funny, and yet thought provoking series titled Dead Like Me.

I could stand to watch it not long after my mother's death because it was funny, and yet it also somehow touched repeatedly upon the meaning of life, mortality, death, and grieving.

I've wanted to buy the DVD set, but due to chronic poverty I haven't seriously considered that an option, however, I am pleased to have discovered the series is available on Hulu.Com.

And so I have spent many hours of this long nearly four day Fourth of July weekend watching episodes of Dead Like Me.

While I'm less emotional about the subject than I was shortly after my mother's death I can say that I still find the series to be as incredibly good as I felt it was then, and so I am highly recommending it to anyone who chances across this blog post.

Ed McMahon Dead

God? Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrreeeeesss Ed!

Ed McMahon Died. My earliest recollection of Ed McMahon was feeling sorry for him. I was a young boy, and I would briefly listen to portions of the Johnny Carson Show, and I would hear how Johnny would make jokes at Ed McMahon's expense, and the crowd would roar with laughter, and I would wonder if Ed McMahon really was a drunk, and if so, why he laughed along with Johnny Carson's comments.

Little did I know that jokes were jokes, and that each was an incredible compliment - I didn't understand the low key comedy routine which Johhny Carson, and Ed McMahon would play out Monday through Friday - I was simply too young.

As years passed I began to understand more and more of the adult world, the world of sophistication, of smoking, drinking, naughty jokes, and Hollywood from watching Johnny Carson, and Ed McMahon. It was a show that seemed at its peak just when I was growing sophisticated enough to understand.

Yet I grew tired of the Carson show as I entered into young adulthood - waiting instead to watch David Letterman, who at the time was the new kid on the NBC late night block.

I'd rarely watch The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson thinking it was boring, and it probably was, yet I did tune in to watch the last show, and I felt sad that the party had come to an end.

I'd see Ed McMahon on Bloopers, and other shows from time to time, and he was always good on whatever I saw him on, but I can't claim I ever watched a show because he was on - and that is the role of the sidekick - to be there, and be square.

I recently watched him on an interview with Larry King, and I felt sad for him, as he was facing the loss of his mansion, but a part of me thought he was being exploited by his various ex-spouses, and his children.

Still I had a great deal of respect for this man as he was still working in whatever capacity he could, even with a broken neck.

I'll always rememeber your Alpo Commercials Ed - you were funny as hell - They just don't make them like you anymore - Hi Yo!

Farrah Fawcett Dead

Farrah Fawcett was a very beautiful woman.

My brother had her famous 1970s poster adorning his bedroom wall as a teenager, and I was always envious that I didn't have one.

The first time I saw Farrah Fawcett was in the Fox Movie Theater in Town and Country Shopping Center on Macarthur Blvd., in Springfield, Illinois. She appeared in the movie Logan's Run.

I was totally attracted to her, although at that age I wasn't entirely sure what those feelings meant, but I knew I wanted more.

Yet, by the peak of her stardom I wasn't interested. I never really like Charlie's Angels.
It was in her post Angel's roles where I realized she was a fine actress.

The last time I saw Farrah Fawcett was in her documentary Farrah's Story. I felt so heart broken for her. God I hate Cancer. Poor baby. May you rest in peace Farrah.

Michael Jackson Dead

Michael Jackson Is Dead

You know I never thought I'd be blogging about the death of Michael Jackson. Michael Jackson seems so unreal to me that it is hard to believe that he could die.


Michael Jackson The Performer

In Michael Jackson's defense he was an incredible performer. From his singing, to his dancing, to his creation of a bigger than life persona, he just never failed to thrill.

His hit songs defined the sound of popular music for years upon end, and he provided tabloids, and comedians with a vast amount of material to sell to a curious public.

He managed to make some incredible music videos which seem more like short films, and he was able to perform at the highest levels of perfection in front of audiences of tens of thousands.

Yet, having said all these positive things about Michael Jackson I must also say that he was an odd man. I don't mean that in a bad way. We common folk need our bigger than life performers to be able to rise above mediocrity - we need them to be able to say - what we can not. Yet Michael was odd in several disturbing ways that slowly eroded whatever chance he had to be revered by the mass public.


Michael Jackson The Child Molesting Freak

The oddest thing about Michael Jackson was his pederasty. He admitted to sleeping with boys, and he paid many of their families off to keep them from sending him to jail for molesting their children.

Michael Jackson never wanted to grow up, and unlike most people he had the means to avoid doing so.

One of those means was surgery. Not only did Michael Jackson die his skin white, but he also spent his life pursuing, through plastic surgery, a form of physical beauty. One could never predict exactly how Michael Jackson would look.


Michael Jackson The Mortal

And now he is dead. As I watch the television coverage on CNN I hear speculation that he died of a heart attack brought about by an overdose of prescription medication. If this is true it seems only fitting. He was a very lonely, and unhappy man who feared growing up, and growing old, more than he feared death.

Still, I feel a bit awkward watching how another unhappy star has either deliberately, or accidentally ended their own life. I keep thinking of what I would have done with all the money Mr. Jackson is said to have wasted. And now, like the money, fame, and admiration, which he burned through Michael burned through life.

One observation I wanted to include in this post is that I turned on my radio, not satellite radio, and I listened to the broadcast of dozens of stations looking for one which might be playing Michael Jackson songs as a tribute, and I found not one - not one station playing his songs on air.
What appeared to us in the beginning as a rising star long ago burnt out, and only the charred remains exist now for our fascination.